Life has a certain way of opening its proverbial windows just when you need a little gust of inspirational wind to filter in. Even as I’m writing this, I note the word “certain” and laugh because the whole purpose of this post is to chat about a fantastic chapter in a book that I just read in a book that I’ve had perched on my shelf for quite a while entitled The Fear Cure about the power of uncertainty.
I purchased this book, along with a slew of other motivational books, likely over a year ago. It may have been the brilliant turquoise book cover, the poignant title or the law of attraction that drew me to it specifically, but whatever the circumstance, I find that I am compelled to it in pieces when the timing is right. It’s the Universe saying to me, “Ok, you are ready for this one.”
I couldn’t remember where I had left off, but funny enough, the inside jacket was folded over to a particular part in the book leading into the Four Courage-Cultivating Truths. Instead of attempting to find my place beforehand, I took it as a sign that I should begin reading where my eyes lead me.
Before I delve into the context, let me first set the scene on where my head has been at lately. I am an entrepreneur and business owner in her second full year of business. Prior to venturing out on my own into the ‘uncertain’ murky waters that is business for self, I had a cushy medical sales role and was approaching a six figure salary before the age of 30. I was on the path of success – so my Small Self would say (I’ll get into this shortly)! But – despite my financial gains – something felt unsettled. I did not feel like I was on the right path and so I would dip my toes into MANY (and I mean MANY) projects.
Writing for the Senate of Canada, launching a local chapter of a non-profit, competing in Bikini Fitness competitions, small business marketing and writing gigs on the side – my life was FULL of activity. So, why didn’t I feel fulfilled? Why did I still have this nagging, buzzing, mosquito-like hum in my ear saying to me that it was not right?
Akin to the story I just so happened to read in this chapter of The Fear Cure, the author talks about her Perfect Storm which is the series of events that transpired in a short period of time in her life that made her question everything that she “knew” about her beliefs on certainties she held onto dearly. Within a span of two weeks, she gave birth to her daughter, she lost her father unexpectedly, her dog of 16 years passed away, her brother of 31 years old went into liver failure and she lost all sense of what was “supposed” to be based on her thoughts of a certain and successful life. As a highly respected OB-GYN, she could afford security, fancy beach house and luxury vehicles, a husband and new baby but it was ALL flipped on its head when these events occurred. Suddenly, the annoying buzz that was in her ear all along could no longer be ignored. She left her well-respected practice without a security net and ventured into the unkno